My manager at Bath & Body Works, Ellen, has created so much stress for me that I literally have mini anxiety attacks throughout the day. And I mean even on days when I don’t see her, and/or haven’t seen or talked to her in several days. I shouldn’t be terrified of my manager, and she shouldn’t cause me to have such intense anxiety. Before she started at BBW in October, yes I was struggling, but I wasn’t really dealing with anxiety…only rarely. But now I feel anxious even when I’m with my AMAZING manager, Micah, at Swarovski. Micah has actually noticed how much Ellen has affected me, which really says something because I am normally great at hiding my true feelings…
It’s asinine. It really is. Which is exactly why I’m taking all my problems with Ellen to my District Manager. For the second time.
I’ve tried being nice and talking to Ellen in a civilized manner, but we never get anywhere, and I always end up feeling like shit afterwards. I mean last week when I sat and spoke with Ellen about something that happened with a customer a few days prior, Ellen made me feel so uncomfortable and terrible about myself that I started scratching my arm out of nervousness, but I started digging deeper and deeper as the conversation went on. I ended up scratching the fucking skin off my arm. I’ll let my DM deal with Ellen now. I’m done trying.
Maddie Ziegler on the pressure she gets from Abby (via queenzieglers)